Disposable anything

Go ahead and dispose of all of this. It's only your own children you're doing this with.

Who cares right?

The way that people approach new information is seriously flawed.

Yesterday I witnessed a young man lose it. Very slowly, but very surely.

Undeniably. Several of us watched it happen... and no one could do anything. Not even me.

Many asked me what should be done... some honestly and simply said "I don't know what to do" , as they look me in the eyes seeking direction. Sadly... I always know, because I've seen it all to many times before, while it was new to them.

But let's get back to that young man that lost it.
And even though he was in a room with about 5 people there, he was all alone as he descended into final oblivion. It wasn't because no one was physically there to save him...
It was actually the people being physically there, but mentally and emotionally not being there that sort of did the trick.

That sounds complicated right? But it isn't really. Let's go find some context to make this easier shall we?

Let's call him Steve, and Steve is 27 years old. Steve has a job as a delivery driver for frozen foods. People order which things they want to stuff their freezer with, and then this fella drives around with a freezer to bring it to them at a premium price. (His customers still can't stop themselves buying some ice-cream on their next trip to the supermarket though, where they could buy the exact same things at a lower price, but at that moment it's about performing consumption , and when they're at home its about the fantasy of having slaves so they just switch relative values of everything between those situations. The end result no one cares about.)

But for him... that whole sideshow is what defines his value as he think it's being seen by all those other humans around him. "What do you do" is the most important question he's ever heard. And if it doesn't sound swanky enough he's not worth anything so he has to try and show he's better than a frozen fantasy delivery driver by what he wears and what he drives and hos pretty his girlfriend is. There's not much else when it comes to being able to describe what's important to this fella. That's what Steve is doing, and its all he knew.

Steve still lives with his parents since the pay level of any employment available, after taxes isn't enough to rent anything, let alone buy anything. His entire life he's been shown this situation where old people still talk to him with the math of the reality that those old people grew up in. But it doesn't hold up anymore.
Their pension is insufficient aswell, but even in the same sentence as complaining about it, they still tell their children they should work for their pension.

To put that in perspective... Me personally have already payed more than 1 million euro's in taxes during my career and i'm almost twice his age.
Yet, that only results in a projected pension that can't even feed me , let alone give me a roof or any kind of support expectation whatsoever. It was with the part of the money left after paying all those taxes that I need to take care of my own future since there is little if nothing to depend on. My own governments tell me this too. I've been working steadily for over 25 years now and while income was growing for 20 years, it went absolutely flat and then even negative in the past 5 years.

So income is going down. But even during growing income the resulting pension I might receive from all of that was declining when adjusting for inflation. Every year I had to pay more taxes in absolute money. And every year the projection of my pension would literally go DOWN in absolute numbers.

Sure, you can always invent a percentage or a graph that "goes up slower" , and then that also still growth, while the absolute numbers of value only go down.

Steve is in the same situation, and he feels and sees it everywhere.

After one year into the job he had , he was told he was one of their best employees compared to the other ones, and then that next year he'll have to take a pay cut... Because that's just the way it is.

More hopes dashed , more completely deranged responses from his family and basically any other human around.

Steve goes around and talks to people about all of this. Me and him have talked about his world several times too , but he always falls into a pit of depression while taking some sort of external substance to make him get through it.

In the course of 2 years I've seen him escalate these things...

First it was wine , with the odd shot of some liquor in between it.

Then it was just strong stuff... mixed and sweetened in most cases.

And then the stuff came in powder and pill forms...

Always the same story through those years. Always shorter and faster paths toward the same action , and more intense repetitions of those same actions.

I can't blame Steve for any of this.

He has been given no other examples. Everyone older than him does the exact same thing everywhere, and says it's the right thing to do. The way that his government handles every part of their legislative responsibility is exactly the same. Introduce some drugged fantasies that make you ignore reality. (Innovation funding for instance) ... or the way that healthcare is funded... or the food supply... and lets not even talk about fiscal policy shall we?

If a citizen goes to a bank to ask for a loan with no other reason than to pay off interest of the past loan, but this time worse... and the solution for the future is to keep doing that until something kills me... they call me a criminal, while they're saying it's what they themselves have to do while being the judge of who is a criminal.

Does it surprise you people that what the drugdealers tell him makes sense?

Can't you see that the entire mechanism of perception of information and the available responses too it that was presented to Steve's lifetime was exactly the same story as what the drugdealers give him?

All his most "successful" friends are drugdealers exploiting everything and everyone around them like vampires. That's the story that makes sense after a while.

But obviously their sense is flawed , and it always culminates the same way.

And yesterday I saw Steve go completely down the drain....

He had started drinking during the day obviously.
So was in a nice fuzzy wuzzy haze most of his day already.
When things needed action he'd snort some coke probably , to get "the juices flowing" again... There's sure to me some amphetamines around that too , and to be able to eat there's sure to be some hash in there too somewhere.

And then I watched him have a conversation with his ex girlfriend...
Who told him he was too edgy or too rounded or too something or not enough of something else so he should go take something... He needed correcting by introduction of things that change him , as a way to try and fix him into behaving what someone else needed of him and all he wanted was to be understood and to reach a human.

He hasn't succeeded yet obviously , since the result of whatever he went to take... and everything else of that day... plus about 10 minutes after he came out of the bathroom...

Was someone who wasn't capable of standing upright anymore. Who was obviously experiencing delusions and didn't have enough of a sense of balance left to even sit up right anymore. Emotions of pain and despair flashed acrossed his face... sometimes his legs would try to make a strange imitation of running away as the rest of his body obviously had no clue what those legs were trying to do.

His hands would both have a mind of their own too it seemed. Uncoordinated.

All of it. Not a single function of humanity had any coherence or synchronization left in the mind and body of this young man who was only looking for love in all the wrong places.

And then to go back to why the fact that there were humans physically present, but not a single sliver of humanity was left between all those people...

Because everyone just ignored all of it. Everyone felt sort of "safe" even... since in that state the little rag isn't a risk to them , and that was enough.

And what will Steve learn today? The day after?

He didn't experience how he looked in that state there... he probably only remembers just another night of having a lot of fun he can't remember.

No one will stop him or warn him about it, and no one will tell him what they actually saw.

He will have learned that everyone thinks it's ok he's doing this.

And because no one cares... someone else was shown he'd better do bad things, since everyone just eats up the people who do good.

What do do in this world?
As a person who is in love with reality itself?

For anyone who is not a deranged cannibal in "love" with their fantastical ego simulation of it?

Whenever you're confused... all you have to do is listen and observe better.

You shouldn't ignore those horrible conclusions you make when you truly listen to them. Which is when you can hear how insane their excuses and self-referencing neccesities for bad things are. "They want to die anyways, so lets give them what they are asking for in our insane minds. I consider them food anyways, so just let me avoid my own depression by inflicting harm on others" .

And all you have to say to make them freak out, and run away is to say....

"I will not do bad things. When bad things happen to me, I stop them and try to learn from them so that atleast I can live in the knowledge i'm not evil."

For them that's all very confusing. for them... there are always excuses and you urgently need to submit to them too or you'll discover they're just driven by evil things for evil reasons. They don't like it... they don't like themselves.

Just look them in the eye... and say. "I will not do bad things". And watch them destroy themselves more maniacally than before.

You are not alone in this.

Steve was though. Steve only had cannibals he could talk too. Steve only had parents, and girlfriends, and "friends" that were already gone.

So Steve ended up inducing complete dementia and loss of all control before he even became 30, and since there are now chemical rewirings that have taken over his entire nervous system. He is lost.

there was never anything wrong with steve. Steve was never to blame for any of this.

They are.

Only they are lonely.

You know this to be true.

Just don't listen to them and you'll keep hearing it very plainly.

Who cares what names, systems and religions they placed on the excuses.

Who cares what it's called... You know what is better to not do. You know what is worse to do.

Just live it. And be capable of watching yourself in the mirror completely.

COMPLETELY! And watch them shrivel away when you say...

I will not do bad things.

confused? then don't do it. simple.

Don't do bad things.

Your excuses for them are ramblings of insanity creating more of it.

(But then in a way you can ignore it for a little while)